By I thought by making myself read the lotto numbers, it would help me remember them in the past, as it seems be happening with many other “future memories” since the night in the desert.
If you’re new here, here’s what’s been happening: you know how every memory seems to be saved like in a box on a shelf in our brain, and sometimes you can recall a memory vividly? Well, that’s been me, for the past couple of weeks. I remember EVERYTHING. It’s like I can scroll through unlimited shelves and boxes, pull any memory from any point in my life, and replay it in my mind like a movie. Not only that, but I seem to temember events from… the future? I know at some point in the future I wrote a book. I know it was about the war. It’s fucking sad, but it’s a good book. I’ve been proud of that one. Apparently I’ll publish that in 2042. What would happen if I publish the book now, early? I already know what’s in it. How would that change the timeline? Just thinking about this scenario, doesn’t seem to change my future memories, so I didn’t change my timeline just by thinking I should alter the future. Unless, I can’t possibly remember a timeline I didn’t yet get to live. Maybe I can only remember this one. Am I stuck here? Can I influence my own fate beyond what decisions I had to make in this “original” timeline? Is that even free will, if I can’t really change my mind on things? I seem to have lived this timeline, and it doesn’t want to budge.
I tried to change outcomes, I tried cheating at games, hoping to change the future I vividly remember, it somehow resets back to the same familiar timeline. I even tried committing crimes. As I wake up the next day, the previous timeline is back, me, just a day older. The crimes I made myself do yesterday are erased from ever having happened, if they didn’t match with the original memories of the future. I do remember yesterday’s alternative events, though.
Its frustrating I still don’t seem to remember any lotto numbers from the future, even though I made a plan to watch live all the published numbers from now on, for the rest of my life. No future memories of any numbers come to me yet. Yet! For now, I’ll just enjoy this timeline I’m stuck in, it is indeed pretty fun.
And since the time resets clean when I wake up, I wonder what crimes could I commit today? Let’s have some fun! (I don’t remember any repercussions from the future, so, I should be okay!
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